Im drenched ! Just came back home from school not long ago. Gonna head to bugis later bcos hwees wanna buy smth from thr and afterwhich, we`re gonna buy jenny`s bday present. Hurs ! ;D

It was alright in school today, just that i was sleeping almost throughout the day. =D Hehs. Mom was called down to sch today to see ganbound. And afterwhich, ganbound talked to me & asked me many stuffs. She caught my brow stud and asked me to throw it away. >;( $12.90 gone like that ! I threw it into the tall dustbin and heng my stud fell on a newspaper. After her lesson, i went to pick my stud up and the dustbin cover smashed my head ! Hahaha. Disinfected my stud and put it back in. Went for chinese and the lesson finished quite fast bcos i entertained everyone with my ez-link card photo which was taken when i was primary 4-5. Hahs. I was so fugly luhs, fat & neckless. Gosh ! Me and zhu kept eating in class and the 2 girls behind us kept laughing. Damnn funny luhs. Hehs. Headed home alone after school bcos becks wenta eat with beatrice, crush went home early and hwee had to stay back in school for cheerleading ! Boo. I hate being alone __.

Oh, and i`ve made a promise to myself. Im gonna forget marcus. And its for real this time. So pls dont tell /talk to me about him or remind me anything about him. Thank you ! =)

I shall ask mommy how to use the scanner and i`ll scan my ez-link card photo for you pple to see. Surely chio-ka-peng ! =D Lols.

Alrightys, im done updating. Sayonaras ! =)

Hello world :) ! Im so damn bored now, i feel like going down to get banged down by a car. One life, must try getting banged once. Agree? No? Hahs.

My leg is injured bcos of what i also dont know. All i know is that when i walk, it hurts ! I dont know whats wrong with me nowadays, i think im getting a lil kuku in the head. Sometimes, i feel that i love marcus alot, but yet, sometimes, i feel like i hate him like fuck. And now, i think i like someone else. Hahs. Fuck that luhs ! My life is getting so complicated ! I hate this kinda feeling. Also, im damn down on my luck this few days. Firstly, i got caught by tht stupid bitchy chemistry teacher for using HP in class, and my phone got confiscated. Next, i got caught for my lip & brow studs and afterwhich got sent to the DM. I dont know why, but i broke down infront of my teachers because i was so sleepy & pek chek & i had alot of things kept in my heart. So once i cried, i couldnt stop. Hahs. Thinking back, i feel kinda retarded. Lols. Met hwee in the night and accompanied her to keli`s grand dad`s funeral. Sat there for awhile before heading home. =D Hehs.

Alrights, im feeling so sleepy i dont think i can continue this anymore. I shall go bang the wall and get myself knocked out now. =D Buhbyes !

My stomach is damnnn pain ! Boo ! It`s so pain until it`s making my heart hurt. Gosh. Anyways, im feeling damn fucked up now. My feelings are so mixed up because im so unsure of everything and i fucking hate this. I am very sure of my answer when my friends ask me if i still like marcus, and my answer would be a straight no. But yet i dont know why everything he do affects me so much. I told him i was attached ; which was a lie, just so tht i wouldnt be the cause of quarrel btwn he & his gf becus his gf thot tht he was 2-timing her with me. Which i think is damn dumb.Anyways, why should i even fucking care if they quarrel or not? Its tht bitch who stole him away from me .Gosh. I cant be so KIND-hearted anymore ehs? Hahs.

I cried in the bus on the way to school today as i thought back about me & him. I seriously was so sure of myself that i had forgotten about him but i guess tht i was just forcing myself to forget him. Arghs, fuck tht ! How am i supposed to move on like this? ;( Boohoohoo. Someone pls drag me out of this shithole. Why is he still holding on to me when he has got his gf? Why does he have to talk about our past when he knows its gonna hurt? Hais.. Fuckk. Im feeling so so exhausted now, so exhausted of having to keep my tears back, so exhausted of having to act infront of my frens. Arghs. Someone pls help me...

i'd rather have bad times with you, than good times with someone else.
i'd rather be beside you in a storm, than safe and warm by myself.
i'd rather have hard times together, than to have it easy apart.
i'd rather have the one who holds my heart.. yeah.
i found this one thing is true,that i'm nothing without you.
i know better now...

I guess i miss you boy.

Fuck. Emo emo day today. Its the 26th of march today, supposedly me & marcus`s 2 years anniversary.. but.. sigh ! I msged him at 12 am last night, telling him tht today would be the start and end of everything, and when i say end, i mean he goes his way, i go my way.

From the day we broke up until now, i was quietly waiting for him @ one side, bt i didnt want him to know i cared about what he was doing. I missed him but i controlled myself by not smsing him or calling him. Soon, he called me, talked bout our past, which made me smile, to know that he still thinks of our sweet past. He told me i was a good girl & whoever tht gets me as his gf would be a really lucky guy. I pondered about this, if he says tht whoever gets to be my bf would be lucky, why didnt he wanna be tht lucky one? He asked me if i was happier now, i said being single has its own happiness and having a BF has its own happiness, and i asked him if he was happy now and he said no. Why no? I really wonder why. I really dont understand why is it that whenever i call him when he`s with his gf, he talks to me like fcuk, but whenever he is at home or w/o her, he would talk to me about our past & make my heart go all soft. Is it because im single now thats why he dont feel how it feels like to see the one you love loving someone else? I know that in the future, if i ever get another guy, he would never be able to replace marcus deep down in my heart. Hais..

Boy, there are times when i look into your eyes, i see the love that we share, i see the joy inside.But i didnt see the feelings you hide and now you`re saying goodbye because your love is done. Im really throughly disappointed in you boy. Really really disappointed.

Bodoh! So bored. Gonna hit the bed after updating. Went to town with hwee & stacy. Damn dumb. We went all the way there, to eat breadtalk & drink sweet talk ! Hahs. Im so tired now, might be waking up early tmrw to meet up with siewhwee the CHICKEN for breakfast, provided if she rmbs to call me to wake me up! Hahs.

Im gonna close my fucking nose hole and re-pierce it again some time soon. Reason being bcos i cant squeeze the stud thru & now, my nose hurts like fuck. I feel as though i`ve just gotten punched luhs ! haha. And my nose is damn swollen now. Ugly like shit. Lols.

I wanted to change my blogger skin this afternoon. But i got pek chek after doing it for awhile. Wanted to remove our pictures at the side, but got lazy after thinking i had to find other pictures to replace them. Hahs. Anyhoos, the pictures of us in my phone is already deleted. Not that i wanted to delete them but my fucking MMC cocked up so i had to reformat it. Hahs.. I guess god is trying to tell me something? Hahs. Whateverr ! Gonna watch movie with ah xiang tml. Hope i dont malu myself bcos we`re gonna catch a horror movie and pple know that sammie CANT tk horror movies. Hahs. =D Saturday might be heading for a BBQ with siewhwee & co but im not sure if i wanna go, bcos like so extra leh. Hahs. Dont know luhs !

Oh, and just to let whoever that wanna know, im not attached. Im single & loving it. And its not that as though i dun haf marcus, no one else wants me. Up to date, i`ve rejected 4 guys. Hahs. See foo toon cheng ! You duwan me, many pple want me ohkay ! hahaha. Uhkay. feeling abit retarded here but yeah, im single now and doesnt mean i take picture with a guy means im attached to him luhs ! OPEN MINDED PPLE, OPEN MINDED ! Hahs.

Okay, imma sleep now. Shall upload PEETURES another time. ;D

Im bored. So i decided to update. Slept for 2 hrs this morning and headed to srgn to do the dump CIP. Went to paint walls @ a childcare centre. Supposed to meet hwee but she fell asleep so i went to meet this guy named darius. Talked awhile and i headed home to sleep. Supposed to meet hwee again but i think not meeting alrdy bcos its so late. Anyways, im gonna upload pictures and den i tink imma head to bed.





Me, me & me. Hahs. There`s more den this but i duwan upload bcos i duwan to spoil you pple`s eyes. Hahs. Next time den i will slowly upload agn ! haha


Me while doing my hair treatment. I know i look dumb! lols . Can you see my piercings? Hahs.


First 2 pictures is me & shanny, 2nd pic onwards is me & most beloved <33

Dumbo sister & me. Hahs

Me & Mister Eric. Hahs.

Before when i was happy and after when im not happy anymore. Hahs. I think i look sweeter last time. LOL.

Shag shag face with only 2 hrs of slp and only foundation ! Hahs. =D

2 bitches feeling bored alrdy. =D Hahs.


BYE PEOPLE ! Sammie`s out ! Hahs ;p

Yayness ! Finally got my lip and brow pierced, thanks to ann na ! Hahs. The lip wasnt as pain as i expected it to be but the brow piercing was painer than i expected it to be. I wonder what my mom will do when she sees me man ! I think imma get into alot of trouble. Lols. Gonna meet siewhwee to do hair treatment later, im spending so much money today. Arghhhs, why cant money come in as easily as spending it uhs? hahs..

School ended @ 11.20 today bcos of meet the parents. Heng mommy isnt free to go. Hahs. Headed to Junction 8 with siewhwee to get studs and afterwhich, we headed to ann na`s place to do our piercing. After piercing, we headed to heartland to buy oral B den we headed home. I hope siewhwee call me soon bcos i wanna leave the hse before mom comes home. Surely kpkb one. Hahs. Alrights, i will update again most probably on tuesday or what bcos im gonna be real busy the next few days. ;D

I dont know why, but i somehow miss him. >.< Danggg it !

Byeee !

Just got back home about an hour ago. My finger got cut and its damn pain now. Lols. I plastered my finger and now its so difficult to type. Lols ! Anyways, im just here to say... IM GONNA PIERCE MY LIPS AND EYEBROWS TML ! So scared but excited. Pls god, dont give me infection ! Haha. Okay. Bye bye~

Im back home. Mom has been complaining about me going out at night and coming back late so i decided to come back early today. Hahs. Cant wait for friday luhs ! Gonna ton and i`ve got many many programmes luhs ! Haha. Went to eat my chee cheong fun today, like FINALLY ! Hahs. There`s sch tml and it ends at 4. Thursday ends @ 5.30. Gosh. Sibei siann. Feel like ponning luhs !

Ytd went to plaza again with hwee. Met desmond there and we slacked. Siewhwee kept laughing @ desmond bcos he just pierced his tongue and he couldnt pronounce anything that starts with S. Damn funny luhs ! After that, we went to shop and save to buy sweets and afterwhich we headed to 7-11. Zzz... After standing for awhile, we headed homeeeeeeee and i went to slp. Woke up @ 4+ bcos mom was talking to sisters, looked @ my HP, ten miss calls, one msg. Nine miss calls was from marcus. Dumbo, call me so late @ night when he knows i`ve gt sch. Anyways, he called again today to ask me about what i`ve heard bout his GF. I told him and i just said tht his GF makes me feel tht she is a bitch. That is just in my opinion luhs ! Might be rebonding my hair in the march hols and might be piercing my lips. I dunno luhs, everything is see miss ng siew hwee. haha..Anyways, gonna upload retarded photos ! x)

Ohoh, and i`ve bought a black and hot pink bra @ $9.90 each. Damn wu hua right right? haha.. ;x


Not ready yet luhs ! Dumb siew hwee, lousy photographer! Haha


Much better! Haha


Just compare our skills ! Haha


Take one, take two. Okay, 2 retards. Haha


Me & my dumb sister. Haha Her eye got infection thats why she is in glasses.


Zi lian luhs ! Haha


I LOVE HER ! MY CCF DATE ! =D

Boo ! Im home. Haha. Its only 11.56am and i left school at 10.40am. Haha. Lied to the teacher that i was sick so now im home. Haha. Im fucking tired plus sleepy luhs ! Gonna hit da bed after this. Ytd went to stacy`s house to bai nian. Her room is fucking nice, haha ! I like it~ After slacking in her hse, we headed to hg plaza to eat. The chee cheong fun is damn power ! Just thinking about it makes my mouth water ! Haha. Gonna get mom to buy it for me later. I swear that i will marry anyone who brings me there everyday to eat it. Haha.. Okay, i sound like a fucking pig. ;x

I realised i`ve changed alot ever since i broke up with marcus. Not in a good way though. I`ve become more guai lan, i went back to my old ways and i dont care about my studies now and im doing my o levels this year. I guess its because i have no one to watch over me or control me thats why im like that. Zzz.. Im one girl who really needs someone to take care of if not i`ll go astray and i`ll xue huai very quickly. I am super money faced now. I dont go for love anymore, i look at the person and see if he has money, car or bike. If he has, i will just fuck care and make friends with tht person which i know its damn dumb ! When i was with marcus, i didnt care about money @ all, i didnt care if marcus had any money or not and i couldnt understand why he always said that money was impt. After breaking up with him, my heart has hardened and i dont want to love anymore. I dont want to love another person like how i loved marcus because im afraid of getting myself hurt again. Arghs ! So confused now. I know im throwing myself down to the pits but yet, i allow myself to fall. When will someone love me more den i love him? Hais.. If only i could be a fuck it and just not care about anything in this whole damned fucked up world! Hahs.

Im going to bed now. I guess its bcos im sleepy thats why im typing this whole load of shit ! Lols.. Alrights. Bye ~ =D

Sorry for the lack of updates bcos both my computers were down & i had to wait for my uncle to come over to repair it. Hahs. Anyways, lots to update ! But pictures will be another time bcos im really lazy. Hahs..

On friday, i met siewhwee for dinner @ 11+ pm. We sat a cab to 'GrapeVine' but there wasnt anymore food bcos the kitchen was closed. So we walked all the way to 'Punggol Nasi Lemak' to eat and we ate hell alot. Haha. After eating, we walked all the way to plaza and we kept screaming on our way there. 2 retarded bitches. Haha. After we reached plaze, we met desmond and we walked all the way to sengkang. Supposedly, we were to walk all the way to punggol but we got really tired + urgent halfway thru. Hahs. So we sat down and slacked. Talk cock sing song till about 3+am before sitting a cab back home. Concussed till the next day.

Ytd, met siewhwee for dinner again. We went to plaza to eat. After eating, me and siewhwee decided to go to 'Shop & Save' to walk 2 rounds. We ending up shoping & saving. Thats if you get wad i mean. Hah. After that, we headed to Macdonalds to slack as we still had to wait for stacy. Slacked till 11+ before meeting stacy & desmond. Sat cab all the way to punggol. Wanted to go punggol beach to see things but we didnt know how to walk there and we ended up sitting @ the roadside. Haha. Sat there & talked for awhile and we walked all the way back to Punggol MRT to sit cab. Haha. Me and siewhwee ate again ! Grr.. Supposed to be on a diet luhs ! LOL. Stacy left us and me, siewhwee and desmond walked to hg green bcos desmond wanted to eat. This dumb crazy drunk lady opened the toliet door and banged my head. I only said a 'WAH PIANG EH' and she kept apologising. Haha. retard. And she stank ! ;S We slacked @ Mac till about 5+ am and we sat a cab home. BTH already luhs ! Reached home and used the spoiled keyboard computer for awhile before heading to bed. Might be going over to stacy`s place later to bai nian. Shall see how it goes luhs ! Alrightys, im done updating. Bye bye!

Oh, wait. I heard some things about ................ And i am sure he`ll regret it sooner or later. Oh wells, i dont really give 2 hoots about it bcos as i said, im already moving on. =) Shall upload pictures another time. =D